I miscarried on 20th June and I just can't seem to get a grip at the moment, I haven't really talked to anyone, I have a complicated relationship with my partner and we haven't really talked either. It was an unplanned pregnancy but once I'd got over the immediate shock I was over the moon, started making plans and was excited at the future ahead and now I just feel like it's all gone and I can't quite come to terms with it.

I'm worried about my relationship, I don't think my boyfriend will want to try again so I'm scared to talk to him about it. I'm worried about work too, I just can't concentrate on anything for long enough, I keep making mistakes and missing deadlines. I can't stop thinking about what could have been, i don't know what I can do to help myself.

The next few weeks I just can't contemplate really, my sister (my rock) is going on honeymoon for 4 weeks, my boyfriend is going on holiday with his two daughters for three weeks at the same time and my best friend has the most beautiful baby girl but I just can't stand seeing her.

I keep crying at random things and I can't even remember what sets me off, then I'll just be sat staring into space for god knows how long. I'm tired but I just can't sleep and when I do I keep waking up, I feel exhausted. Some days I've been ok and it frustrates me that I can't be ok, I don't know how to get there, I don't know how to get over this and move on, I just know that I can't carry on not being able to function properly but I don't know what to do.

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